How do you know that board is your board? Yes you can shape it to your body, but can you shape it to your soul?
I met this guy who has been surfing all his life, and when he told me to just get the Costco board, my ego flipped.
Here’s the thing, I’ve heard loads of people say they like the Costco board, but for some reason it doesn’t vibe with me.
I want my board, not Costco’s board.
I want a board that will help me connect with the ocean. Maybe my sense of self is skewed and as such, my need to connect with an inanimate object is off putting and maybe even wrong.
But I came here for the connection.
So I’m on my way to the North Shore in Oahu, thinking of that interaction in the store where my ego was not in check. I will make another crack at it and see if this guy realised what my heart is looking for. It’s not in Costco!
This is funny,  because I used to have the tendency to copy everyone. Like a Zelig. I would catch myself doing things that made other people an individual. And sometimes I felt bad, like I didn’t have my own personality.
So to counter that, I always make the effort to not wear the same things everyone is wearing, but yet to only wear hand-me-downs from my family. I still wear a shirt from my aunt that’s probably 15 years old... I’ve had it for 10 years. There are other reasons for this, like, being a scientist with no money, hating shopping, and moving from country to country with two bags every year. Â
So I wonder about this, is my aversion to Costco because I hate being like everyone else, but in all honesty, at the same time I want to be similar to the individuals I connect to. Will explore this as I learn more about myself outback :-) Â
NB: I ended up getting Slasher... a CBC blue foamy (new) and Chicken Joe a pink used foam board back in 2018.